I first knew I had a problem with food when I found myself worrying about how many calories were in my daily multi-vitamin. I stopped myself from getting help, though, because I was terrified of what would happen during the recovery process: would I lose training time? What would it mean to get help? Would I have to tell people? Would everyone find out? Would I have to quit skating?
Looking back on it now, I realize that if I had listened to that voice within me that told me that what I was thinking re: my vitamin wasn’t normal, my career would have ended up quite differently. And, I think it’s easy for those who are struggling with disordered eating or eating disorders to mitigate what they’re doing to their body because of the fear of the unknown. We don’t know what the future will hold, and the eating disorder—while hurting us—has become our safety.
But here’s the reality: the quicker you get help, the quicker you get your power back. In this week’s video, I share what I learned during the recovery process and the facts I wish I knew while I was competing :)